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2011-12-05T20:50:00.001+07:00

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2011-10-14T07:50:00.001+07:00

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2011-10-06T22:31:00.001+07:00

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2011-10-04T13:02:00.001+07:00

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2011-09-30T20:24:00.001+07:00

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2011-09-20T18:09:00.001+07:00

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2011-09-18T18:11:00.001+07:00

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2011-09-12T03:50:00.001+07:00

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2011-09-09T03:58:00.001+07:00

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Holiday in Disguise

2011-03-10T10:33:00.002+07:00

It's tutorial week, which mean I don't have to go to school for any class, but actually it isn't holiday. It just more homework behind a word 'holiday'. Some of my friends flew back to their hometown, while I'm not thinking about going back at all. I really enjoy being home, really. It's just because the feeling when I have to leaving it that makes me super sad :(

So it's better not to going home, doing my homework and other un-important things here.. and waiting for the day when I'm going to have a SUPER LONG holiday then at least I can spend at least a month in Surabaya. Gosh, it's been a long time, I can't enjoy that 2 months holiday because of that stupid internship. I want that holiday again. I miss it very much.

Back to my daily routine, I've been cooking my own food lately. I'm not a good cook. I just cook then tasted it, when I feel I can eat it, I'll turn off the stove :) doing my homework, went to dance class with my roommate and my friend that definitely hurting my thigh until today, watching some tv series (Gossip Girl, Pretty Little Liars, and Vampire Diaries). Well, I'm a bit bored with Gossip Girl, since I felt that they take love for such an easy thing, they are exchanging lovers and yes, they are friends. I just can imagine what love it is. Then I watched Pretty Little Liars that made me think about one movie "Sorority Row". I haven't watch it but I heard from my friends about it and I think they have almost the same story line but of course "Sorority Row" is more cruel. Well, at least there isn't blood at Pretty Little Liars :)

Apart from this 'fun' things, my assessment day is coming. It's my Stage 2 of my Final Year Project. Something has been passing through my mind "What I have to submit on the assessment day?". My lecturer just approved my logo two days ago, and I just finished the stationary yesterday. I guess I have to rushing for this assessment day. My topic for my final year project is a Touring Art Gallery which will be held in Hospital. I'm going to use the infusion bag for my campaign but I don't have any idea, where I can get those infusion bag :(

okay.. that's all for today. It's 11.50 am and I just woke up around 11.00 am. How lazy I am during holiday.
Take a bath - cook - do homework. that's for today

What the hell I was doing!?!?!

2011-02-13T00:09:00.003+07:00

It is my fifth week for my last year in NAFA. I wasted one week already after the stage 1 assessment, since I had to fly back to Indo for the Chinese New Year and I was there for one week. After I came back from holiday, I used the whole week doing nothing.

Even yesterday, I filled my whole day with watched movie and hangout with my classmates, and when I reached home I started to watch TV Series and DVD.

And this evening I freaked out because I just realized there is no progress at all for my final year project. I'm still struggling about the logo and have no idea about the concept of the advertising campaign. I think I chose the wrong topic. It is not interesting at all.

Begh.

Let me forget about this for awhile. Well, the good side is tomorrow my sister and aunt is coming. At least shopping and eating will help me not thinking about this final year project.

However, I'm afraid that I'll fail this semester and won't graduate.
Nononnono. I have to work hard. :(

Give me ideas pleasee!!!!

Secret

2011-01-31T02:21:00.005+07:00

Got a secret
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save
Better lock it, in your pocket
Taking this one to the grave
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said
Cause two can keep a secret
If one of them is dead…

Why do you smile
Like you have told a secret
Now you're telling lies
Cause you're the one to keep it
But no one keeps a secret
No one keeps a secret
Why when we do our darkest deeds
Do we tell?
They burn in our brains
Become a living hell
Cause everyone tells
Everyone tells…

Got a secret
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save
Better lock it, in your pocket
Taking this one to the grave
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said
Cause two can keep a secret
If one of them is dead…

Look into my eyes
Now you're getting sleepy
Are you hypnotized
By secrets that you're keeping?
I know what you're keeping
I know what you're keeping

[spoken]
Alison?
Yes, Katherine.
I have something I want to tell you, but
you have to promise to never tell anyone.
I promise
Do you swear on your life?
I swear on my life

[end spoken]

You swore you'd never tell…

Yes two can keep a secret
If one of us is…. Dead.

Thanks for this month (this year too)

2010-12-27T02:51:00.003+07:00

This year is going to end soon. Even though there are few things that didn't go like what I've planned. I think God already made his own plans and what I dont have and I have right now are the best for me.

In the beginning of this month, I made a wish to God. I hope He gives me at least 6 special days for me (my birthday and the 5 days when he is here), but he gave me 7 special days in this month.

I had a special birthday, my dad and mom was here. I got a surprise. My brother showed. I didn't expect he would be come. My internship ended well. My boyfriend was here for 5 days and we had a great times together (I really miss him right now).

Back to present. I'm still waiting my holiday starts officially. I wonder what can I do during my 12 days in Indo. I guess this will be my shortest holiday. (ever!!) I wish this things won't be repeated again. I used to have at least 2 months holiday, but this semester, the internship things and the missing credit class take 7 weeks of my holiday. :(

Anyway, I'm going home in 3 days. Lots of things are waiting for me. I can't wait to meet Chanel & Romeo with their babies, I also can't wait to meet him and my friends. Hope everything goes like what we've been planning.

Things to do in Indo :
• Eat Nasi Cumi (since my friend keep mentioning about this food 'wen2'
• Lenmark / Grandcity?
• Hug and meet those cute dogs and their puppies
• Good times with family, boyfriend and best friends
• Terang bulan, mie ujung pandang, gudeg, rujak

I really want 30 December come faster. I want my super comfy life... :'(

Booyeah

2010-12-10T09:40:00.002+07:00

Thank God It's Friday... It means a week to go.

I have a feeling that the day that I've been waiting for is going to come faster. It's still seven days more. But, It'll seem fast, since my mom is coming this afternoon and my dad is coming this Sunday. For my birthday. What I'm going to do is force them to treat me at Lawry's. Hahaha. I'm quite disappointed since my brother doesn't want to come with my parents to Singapore. He said that he is having the final exam. Well, it's Sunday, my little brother.. Perhaps he just enjoy his aloneness at home..
Daddy is here for a day, while my mom is here until dunno when (Monday/Tuesday, i guess).
Monday, I have to work 9am to 6pm and 6pm to 8pm I'm going to have SAS D&M
Tuesday, working again 9am to 6pm and maybe going to orchard
Wednesday, doing the same thing like Monday
Thursday, working again 9am to 6pm and maybe cleaning up my house
and....
THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY AGAIN..
and it wont just become TGIF. It will be STGIF :D

:)

2010-12-09T10:15:00.002+07:00

You and me
I will love you my boy

Uh Where did you come from ?
From head to toe you are perfect
What is that you're eating ?
The way you talk and your expression so sweet
How do you fall to sleep ?
Straight forward ? Or sideways ?
What is your favourite color ?
I want to find out every little thing about you

You are so different compared to others
We're attracted to each other
I only hear your voice all day
Now what happens to me ?
I want to love you eternally
Everytime i look at you my heart is thrilled
I wonder if you know this heart of mine ? Kiss me

An angel comes down from the skies
My full love in my heart comes down
You are like an angel from the sky
I love you until forever

You are my guardian angel
When I just stand next to you I'm an angel too
It's funny how I became a shy girl
I became a girl who now wants to complain
Every night when we depart
Your beautiful serenade you sing for me
I think if this is all a dream
Tonight, I really don't want to go home

You are different from others
I still get nervous standing next to you
I let go whatever my friends tell me
What happens to me now ?
I want to love you eternally
If you feel the same way as me, tell me your love
So that I can feel your love

An angel comes down from the skies
The love enough to fill up the world comes down
The beauty looking from the skies
I love you until forever

Our love forever like this
I will promise you until forever, it isn't tiring
When you are tired we could be like friends
I will become anything because I'm all yours
This moment, I'm so happy
I'm satisfied with you laughing with me
Yes you and I, yes me and you
We are loving right now, you and me

An angel comes down from the skies
My full love in my heart comes down
You are like an angel from the sky
I love you until forever

An angel comes down from the skies
My full love in my heart comes down
The beauty sent from the skies
I love you until forever

You and me...
I will love you my boy...

Whatever

2010-12-06T17:51:00.002+07:00

Just realized that time flies so fast when my mom called me after I finished working. She said that she is planning to going here this weekend until Monday. Then I said "It'd be great!! You are going here on Friday, Vita is coming back on Monday, and ups!! Is next week already mom?". I've been counting down on my working hours, and for your information. I count it down not in day, but in hours (insane) haha. But, that is me.

I know that my internship period is going to end soon, but I didn't expect it will be go this smooth. I know it wasn't smooth at all in the beginning. But it's going well. This week is my last two weeks (I know it's still the beginning of the week, but I really want this week end faster).

Birthday is coming. I really don't know what things I want to get this birthday. I never ask anything from my parents, except additional money to buy something for me. Hahaha. Better than get something from them and I don't really like it. Since, my parents don't really know what I want right now. Hence, I keep begging my mom for extra money that I know she won't give any. But, nothing's wrong with trying. Hahaha

This year is going to end soon while not all my wish list for this year been fulfilled. But, I'm still going to say thanks to God who gives me all these things. Things that I've never asked in the beginning of the year, things that I've never expected will be a reason why I say 'He is good to me', things that even though not as good as my expectation but still the best for me. I love this year. Except the part that I can control my appetite. almost everyday I go out with my friends, eating. Since, there is no food in my current home. Miss my old house and my old housemate..

Enough talking nonsense..
:)

WHITE HORSE ♥♥♥♥♥♥

2010-11-24T08:24:00.001+07:00

Say you're sorry, that face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you

Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known
I should have known

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, now I know

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rear view mirror disappearing now

And its too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late to catch me now

Changes

2010-11-23T20:52:00.003+07:00

May, June, July, August, September, October, November

Tadaaaa.. 6 months never post anything here. LOL..
I have no idea why I feel that Tumblr is more interesting than this blog :)
I can reblog people quotes there. Here?? Nothing. Hahaha

Anyway, lots of things have been happening this 6 months. Forget my weight target. I'm getting supeerrrrr fat this semester. I eat a lot, too much fun with friends, and no stress at all.
Talking about stress, NAFA's assignment used to be the reason why I'm stress, but this semester seems like I dont care about it at all.

I moved to new home. I quite like it, the room is so comfy, though I really miss my old housemate. Not living with them anymore, make me lose my motivation to do homework. Hahahaha

What else?? Since this year is my last year in NAFA, I have to complete this silly module, INTERNSHIP!! I can't go back as soon as the previous semester. I had choose to go to US last semester and didn't do the internship. So, here I am. My friends went home already, only few of us are still here. I wish I could go back to Indo and spend my time with my family and friends.

No HongKong, No long holiday. Luckily, I already have the ticket to go back to Indo for next Chinese New Year celebration... I don't even care if I have to leave my final year project for few days in Indo. It's worth it ahhahaha..

midnight things

2010-05-08T00:26:00.002+07:00

Never updated my blog already, since I dont have enough time for it and I'm too lazy to doing this..

My life is seem so perfect, since all the things that happened all in their own perfect ways. Yeap, yet still I'm still questioning God sometimes.

Time..
It's seem so fast, I done my second year already. So, next time when I come back to Singapore again. I'm going to do my FINAL YEAR in NAFA for my diploma. More responsibilities to take, and more things to do. I felt that this semester I'm going a little bit lazy. Yeah, like I do whatever I want, lots of doing un-IMPORTANT things and don't do more that I supposed to do.
Never mind, it passed already. Now only waiting for the result and enjoy my holiday well. Hahaha

I miss meilany (thanks for visiting me now), soon I'm going to meet my family (also visiting my cousins in USA), I miss my friends a lot ( Vivi, Karina, Billy, Dimas, Satryo) lets hangout! hahaha

counting down to indo

universal studio

2010-02-28T23:14:00.009+07:00

Having lots of fun for this weekend. Hang-outs, taking photos, eating many delicious foods...
I feel so happy, at least I feel like I'm at somewhere else, not in Singapore. Hahaha.

whooaa!

2010-02-17T00:05:00.003+07:00

BUSY BUSY WEEK.
YEAH! Next week is submission week. Hell! I even didn't realize that it's been 6 weeks already. Next week we suppose to hand in our works for this 6 weeks.
And I do NOTHING..

Seems I'm having too much fun for this chinese new year holiday and I'm too slow doing this stupid thing (yeap. I keep facebook-ing, youtube-ing, browsing, and doing some un-important activities at home and even outside)..

Come on!! Where is the old me that always finished my school work at least 2 days before the deadline.. I need the old me, not me that always rushing nowadays.

OK! Let's work hard tomorrow.
This is my homework list that I should finish it!
- monday : design in context 2 - submit the research of (i dont even know what, clever huh?)
brand and brand identity - submit letterhead, envelope, diamond flip envelope,
complimentary slip, and business card
-tuesday : typography - submit some work than i dont know what is it yet, well I havent read the
brief
-wednesday : packaging design : do packaging la! havent do also.
- thursday : still dunno what should i do. The lecture havent told me anything
- friday : nothing. good huh?

well. sleep now

I live for holiday

2010-02-15T20:13:00.002+07:00

One word to describe my Chinese New Year Holiday
AWESOME!!!

Time with family, friends. Having fun with them. Eat whatever I want till I gain 4 kg only in 4 days.
Anything could be better than that??? I guess not.
Had a morning flight, that made me went to airport when it still dark. I'm getting fat. I'm not doing my homework. It's worth it.

I went to my senior high school, met some friends and my teacher. We shared stories after long time not meet face to face, we gossiped, we laughed, chatted, went shopping, ate our fav foods. I know all of them are busy with their tryout and school exams, but they still accompany me, still give their time to spend it with me.. Somehow I feel that even though, I'm stay apart from them, but they always be close. Every time, I return for holiday, we become as close as before..
Funny things happen. Accidentally, me and my best friend just realize that we have lots of same stuffs. We figured when she picked up me to hang out. I saw her wearing the same bag as mine. We never talked about that bag before. Surprise right? And we just figured that it's the third bag that similiar to each other and the two bags before also accidentally the same. We have connection between our hearts. (maybe, but it's still cute though. We are best friends forever). We shared our favourite foods, looking for clothes, went to salon together. It was awesome friend!Even though it's a short holiday, but I thanks lots to God who give me the opportunity to going home for this Chinese new year.

I also had lots of fun with my family. We laugh and may feel the warmth of a family. I really enjoy every moment I spent with them. We had our dinner at two different place. After finishing our first dinner, we went to other place to eat different foods. We ate without stopping. Yeah! Because our family is a family who love to eat, spend our time for eat.Sounds fun right? It's not just fun, it's amazing. Family is the reason why I'd love to going back to my country every holiday, every time I have a chance to going back. I wasn't appreciate the time with family before I went to Singapore. Since I live here and I dont have time with family as much as before, I become a person who appreciate every single moment I have with them. Thanks to God, who gives me a family who always love me and be there for me, support me for everything I do, and thanks for the blessing that He gives to us.

Therefor, I'd like to say the biggest thanks to all of you. I love you dad, I love you mum, I love you brother. I also love my whole family and my best friends in Surabaya.

You are the biggest treasure I've ever had..

surabaya soon

2010-02-12T05:23:00.001+07:00

i'm feeling guilty now, well it's still 6.30 but i cannot control myself. i ate 2 bowls of cereals and burger king meals set even though i know that i should diet. shit!!!

i'm going to eat lots foods soon.. why i cannot control it!! hate it

holiday again

2010-02-11T22:20:00.003+07:00

SURABAYA I'M COMING

Today is a very tiring day. Of course! I woke up 7am then have class and stay over at school till 1 pm. Returned back to home for awhile, putted my school stuffs and went to Orchard to buy some stuffs.
Guess what? I wasn't shop for my friends and family only, I also bought many things for myself.
After that, I went to Vivo, bought foods for dearest Chanel and not surprise! I also bought clothes and curler.
I'm shocked after I arrived at home and look my wallet. The receipts even thicker than my money. I only have one sheet of money when I have more than 10 receipts. :( After I counted how much is it, I'm getting shocker!!

God! I must save my money next month..

Ok well, going off soon. I should take rest and preparing my self for tomorrow.

Leaving Singapore tomorrow on 7am..
CU Homework, CU Singapore
Hello Foods, Hello Surabaya

no cakes

2010-02-07T22:27:00.002+07:00

Bye-bye belt. Bye-bye bag.

I made promise to God already that I won't buy those stuffs this year, coz I almost lost my earring.

Well, it's not about it only. I also made promise not to eat cookies, breads, cakes, crackers, biscuits.
It's gonna be hard. But I will try.. :)

1 week

2010-02-05T09:10:00.002+07:00

I'm getting crazy soon, perhaps..

I wake up too early everyday because of those stupid curtains
I have many homework
and many other reason..

Any way, it's Friday (again). So fast leh! 1 week left and I'm in Indonesia already.
YEAY!! Living around family is the best thing in the world.
I'm so excited. Well, I have a dilemma, which one better cut and smoothing my hair on Saturday or
go and meet my senior high school friends.. Duh! Coz', if I go to salon that's mean I cant go to meet them coz I must go to salon on the morning. Why?? Because I'm going to have a chinese new year dinner in the evening.. If I go meet my friends, then I don't know when I'll have time to smoothing and cut my hair..

I love sweets

2010-02-03T21:38:00.004+07:00

I really do my promise.

I haven't eat breads and cakes since the first of February.
(but if I still eat cookies, chocolate, crackers, and candies instead of it haha-so what is the different?)

So the conclusion is
I AM A GIRL WHO CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT EATING SWEETS THINGS :)

bad huh?

Well, actually I dont care about it. I eat what I like. That's the point of life whattt??, enjoying the things you like and stay away from what you didn't like.. Hahahaha

Anyway, I miss my friends in Indonesia. I'm guessing what are they doing? The people who I see everyday are they who using bb. But I'm looking for my friends who don't have bb. I really miss them.

new wish list

2010-02-02T00:13:00.003+07:00

That's my 2009 wish list! Some of them haven't accomplished, but still thanks to GOD that I got most of them. It's february and I just wrote them since I don't have any idea about what should I wish for this year.

AND I'VE DECIDE ABOUT THIS YEAR WISH LIST. Well its not as many as last year since this is still the beginning of the year. I think it will increase on the following month hahaha. Human always ask more and more. So do I.

february wish list

2010-02-01T23:56:00.004+07:00

Finally it's February. I've been waiting for this month since I cannot write my monthly outcome, coz last month my family keep visiting me. Hahahaha..

It's the first day and new month. Well, officially it's second of february alrd. But, I was doing my homework.

Here some things that I must do for this year :
-I've made a promise between me and my sister for the next 40 days. STOP eating our favorite
food. I stop eating bread, cakes, and cookies for this next 40 days and she stop eating mie
goreng. (ended : 8 March 2009)
-Saving money for that 'C' bag and I also want to buy the orange hermes belt :)(which one should
I buy first?, one of them must wait for next year - depends on how much money I can save haha
-DIET.. I want to eat all the foods during the chinese new year. oh food!
you know why i need diet?? i was eating all of this food within 3 days

LOTS

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saturday fun and homework!

2010-01-31T03:27:00.002+07:00

Woke up early this morning, coz I'm going to watch movie with friends and decided to go to church on saturday because I want to stay awake till the invitation homework almost done, and here I am. 4.30 am still sitting in front of my lovely laptop haha..

I went out since morning and went home around 9, doing homework. What a tiring day!!
But I'm happy because it almost done :) Thanks God!!!!

2 finish

2010-01-30T00:15:00.002+07:00

1.16 already. At last, 3 homework done alrd. The Monday and Tuesday's homework finished.

Finished with ignoring all the bbm and facebook. Shit! I think I become lazier.

I was turning on my skype, checking whether my sister is online or not and suddenly one of my bff called me. We chatted awhile and she said that my cheeks are like ballons!! She said that i need diet. oh my!!

Is it that worse?!?!?!

YEAAA! February is coming, I can organize my outcome again after my january's income-outcome book screwed up because my family doesn't stop coming since i was coming back to singapore after the holiday. It doesn't mean the visiting time over already. Next week and next two weeks, my grandfather still coming here..

Well, time to sleep now... :)

i hate homework

2010-01-29T17:13:00.002+07:00

I have lots of homework lately. I haven't done it yet and my granpa is coming here again on monday.
Shit! I need refreshing...

Monday Class - Branding and Brand Identity
- 100 brand journal
- logo for restaurant

Tuesday Class- Typography for Print Communication
- 8 different typography system

Wednesday Class - Packaging
- improvement (and I do nothing, what can i improve?)

Thursday Class - Pre Press Production
- invitation design (must done all plus the FA)

Friday - Marketing and Advertising Strategies
- presentation about the singapore company SWOT, 4P's and the market research

I'm getting crazy soon

Resolutions not wish lists.

2010-01-26T11:58:00.000+07:00

I have big plans for 2010.

No carbs after 5pm. Check.
Healthier means not each to much bread, cookies, candies. Check
I'll use the gym and swimming pool at my condo. Check
Talk slowly. Check.
Control my emotion. Check.
Love my enemies. Check.
Drop weight. Check.
More bagS and shoeS. Check.
Do my homework neatly and patiently. Check
Whoa!

Resolutions are always easier to maek than to follow through on. Well, I dumped some of them already. Oh come on. It's still 3 weeks since the beginning of the year.

miss this people lots

2010-01-19T23:04:00.004+07:00

Hongkong - macau.. I'm coming

2009-12-24T06:35:00.001+07:00

Hey!
I'm on my way to Juanda Airport.
Christmas mood, shopping, having fun, eating lots of delicious foods, etc

One thing that bothering me now, NAFA
Their module registration always sucks.
Last year, I must wait almost the whole day to enter the site because it jammed.
And this year, they open the site on 24 december (which is today) from 9.00 onward (when my plane take off). Hate it.

Now, I should ask my classmate help..

May all of you have wonderful christmas :) take care..

CHRISTMAS

2009-12-23T12:22:00.002+07:00

I'm going to HONGKONG and MACAU tomorrow with my beloved family haha.
Guess what?! I've a long shopping list.

This gonna be a perfect christmas holiday.

bye all..
will be on holiday 24 dec-31 dec 2009
MERRY CHRISTMAS :)

Bee C day

2009-12-22T19:08:00.001+07:00

I was very busy yesterday. Woke up early then went to my friend house. Waiting for the photographers.
Yes, I had outdoor photoshoots yesterday with my bestfriend, vivi and her sister.

We had appointment with the photographers on 9.30 but the stylist was late because something happened with the car.
After make up and chose some outfits we left vivi's house on 2 something. We took some shoots at citraland, in the middle of the streets in front of adiwangsa (very crowded and must have a thick face to take photos there, and I don't have it. I bet my photos that they shot there will be very 'kaku'. haha)
Then the last photoshoots were taken at ptc. Wearing dress and thick make up made me walk with always looking my bb, coz I was very 'malu'.
It finished on 6.00pm, and I drove my car as fast as I can. Went home, removed all my make up, took a bath and went to my brother bday dinner. After that, I went to adijasa till it was almost 10.30. I slept on 11.30pm.

Haha. I am very tired but very fun. And today, I don't have a good mood until I had my twist bubble gum soursally with pink mochi, peach, and strawberry. Haha..

Bring the peace

2009-12-21T07:52:00.001+07:00

It's been 2weeks (almost), I'm not post anything here. Seems I'm getting bored with this haha. It's not the only reason, because I've been busy lately. Hanging out with friends, going out with family almost everyday, and my sister is here already.

Christmas is coming soon and christmas is a time when u must forgive each other. Bring peace to the world with :
- forgive yourself (human do mistakes, forget your past and move on. There is something wait you)
- forgive the others (people can do something bad to you, and maybe you hate them. But, forgive them)
- forgive the circumstance (maybe u live in the life that u THINK is not fair for you, but there you are. God always give the best for you)
- "forgive" God (doesn't mean that God do mistake. No, He never make any mistake. But sometimes, we think that what happened in our lifes is a mistake. Sometimes we ask,"God, why this happen? We blame God, seems like He do mistake. No, he didn't. He never make mistake)
I heard this when I was at church yesterday. I really like this.

Okay :) that's all for today. I'm going to have outdoors photo shoots with my friend.. Bye :)

GOD IS GOOD

2009-12-08T16:39:00.004+07:00

GOD is so GOOD to me.

Today, I opened my school website and check my result for this semester.

and.....

MY GPA is 3.00
better than last year.
It is improving.. haha

hahaha.. once again. thanks LORD..

Special thanks to my parents and friends who always support me :)

month of pleasure :)

2009-12-03T18:01:00.000+07:00

Finally it's december already..

December...
-my favourite month when my bday and christmas is celebrated. Haha
I'm going old soon :( don't know why, I feel different with the previous
year, I'm not that enthusiast waiting this day.
But, still... I LOVE CHRISTMAS cannot wait for this christmas haha.
-the holiday is coming
I'm going to hongkong and macau soon :D shopping, and eating..
I wish I could spend my life with those activities everyday, without any
worries and problems (..dreaming. Haha)
- rainy day
I love sleeping, and I love to sleeping in the rainy and cloudy day. Make me
don't want to wake up in the morning and make me sleepy in the
afternoon. Hahaha.

quote

2009-11-24T22:35:00.000+07:00

Flipping my old notes and found some good quotes that I was copied from a friend when I was studying at senior high school..

Here's the quote
Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feeling, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day
But try to hide it in every possible way
He's only a friend and nothing else
That's the lie you keeping telling yourself
You keep on saying he's just a bud
But deep inside, you're falling in love
You get so giddy when you meet his eyes
But keep reminding yourself it isn't right
A simple glance turns into a stare
Buy you pretend that you don't care
It's "not right" for you two to be
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that he's just a friend?
Perhaps your feeling you can never show
Perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know
Your friendship can't be risked over this

After I read this quote, maybe I think this is the worst position ever. Loving someone but you keep all of those feeling for yourself. Keep pretending and fake a smile in front of the person you love or maybe the other people just to show that u are fine, even though you are not..

Somehow, I agree with some statement in this quote,
"perhaps it's wrong for him to know, your friendship can't be risked over this"
Being friend is better than nothing.. :)

For the people who liking someone secretly, maybe this is not the right time to confess your feeling. Just wait, till God gives u the time and the way =D

enjoy the holiday

2009-11-23T21:01:00.002+07:00

Lek isa ngasih nama hari, kemaren bakalan tak kasi nama " Hari Memanjakan Perut". Yapa ndak?
Pagi makan roti selai kacang. Pdhl biasane makane roti gandum (mekere cekno g garai gendut),
teros lunch golden rama (kenyang pol), maleme ad mom's bday dinner nd angus, dimana ak pesen
sirloin 200gr SET, yg artinya ad appetizer, cream soup, garlic bread, salad,steak, blackforest cake),
blm lg ak nyemil spaghetti carbonara, b oyster.. Haha
Kenyang sak pol2e. Surabaya membuat org g mikiri diet n makan terus, tp itung2 mumpung lah nd indo. G katek meker, makan kenyang pulang, lek nd singapore makan kenyang bayar dw. Haha. Jk!

Hr ini jalan2 k tp, sampe sengkle kaki rasae. Terus plg, tdran bentar, terus brngkt k gm! Capee.. Haha

Setelah tak peker2, ak lg memerlukan bbrp hal :
1. Plg penting ak perlu BLACKBERRY baru. Lupakan keinginan pgn iphone sejenak. Bbku sg sekarang perlu di gnti, dan perlu dijual (untuk ongkos beli bb br juga haha) lelet e amit2, dikit2
loading, pdhl aplikasi2 e ws tak delete i. Ad sg blg "upgrade en ae OS'e". Tp jujur ae, males! Mso ak tw it'll solve this problem. Haha. Why?? Soale kamerae bold cacat. Lek tak upgrade terus
nggena, nti g boleh bli hp br. Hahaha.
I think onyx will be the good phone for my next blackberry haha.

2. New boyfriend? I don't need it urgently, cmne pengen haha. Ypa ya? Lek ngeliat ad org sg pcrn, ato ngga ush pcrn lah. Lg dkt sm seseorg gt. Enk rse ad sg merhatino, mb sg nyayang gt.
Haha. Anyway just forget it, cm keinginan sesaat juga. Hahahaha

3. Ini jg penting, tp ms dibawah keperluan hp br lek disusun berdasarkan skala prioritas ( pelajaran ekonomi yah ini? Kangen pwol wayah2e jek sma. Hiks2) ak perlu kegiatan bermanfaat.
Cekno lbrn kerjaane ga mek nganggur2, ga guna.
Pengen les ini itu. Cmne nelp gurue ya males. Keinginan ad, cmne malese lebi gede. Tkte lek wes les, mrgt ngerasa males akhir2e. Hahaha.. Pgn
les mandarin sakjane yaan. :)

4. Pgn nd surabaya terus. Enak pol rse nde sini. D rmh dw, sm keluarga juga. Tp ya gmn, dl wes ngambil kptsan sekolah nd sgp. Haha. Ngga perlu disesali jg hehehee..

Ws ah, mw ntn tv. Terus tdr, bsk mw k atum. Jalan2 b makan. Hahaha..
Nite :)

first post at surabaya

2009-11-22T07:48:00.000+07:00

Finallly, I can update my blog. After tried to update it using email, and when they posted it, there was a text "sent from xl blackberry. Xl nyambung terus bla bla" (g penting bgt y to?, mb ngisin2i post br mek an nd bwhe ad tulisane itu)

Anyway, ud 1 minggu lebi 1 hr ak nd indo. Jalan2 mb temen, keluarga, makan, tidur, liat dvd. Kerjaan umum seorang pengangguran, yg sukses menimbun lemak. Haha.. Well, today's my mum's birthday. Makan2. Hv fun sm keluarga. Yeay..

Ok, going to church now.
P.S : gud luck for my BFFs and my SHS's friends sg mw uas bsk. Cpt2 mari, cpt jalan2. :D

to do list before returning back to indo

2009-11-11T11:40:00.002+07:00

Submission finish. Hahaha. Only need to waiting for the assessment day :D

Well, i keep writing the same things since yesterday, That's all because I'm so excited to go back to Indo. hahaha..
TO DO LIST BEFORE GOING BACK TO INDO :
- faceshop (beliin karina nail polish bening)
- k cold storage (beliin meme kellogs - kalo koperku ms muat haha)
- tata2 koper (make sure barang2 yg penting ga ada yg ketinggalan)
- rapiin kamar sebelum plg, smua brg masuk lemari
- beratku harus 40 kg sblm plg !!! maw makan banyak hahaha.
- confirm in ticket buat plg sincia tar

2 days to going back :)

3 days to going back

2009-11-10T21:57:00.002+07:00

two more items from my wishlist that I get today. Hahahaha.
I'm so happy... :) love my dad haha

Well, tomorrow is submission for my final project this semester and the at 13 will be the assessment, the day where we should do presentation and the lectures give us marks!!
hope everything will be fine, then get higher gpa than last year, and have a FUN HOLIDAY!!

3 days to going home

piece of shit in my life

2009-11-07T00:24:00.004+07:00

I tried to forgive.
I was thinking to say sorry to you, not to make this back like before.
I never bothering you. Just life my live like before you was here.
Never talk about you anymore with my friends since that day, like you are not part of my life and never been part of my life.

If you think, I'm still care about you. Sorry I'm not
If you think, I always say or do something to against you. Sorry, I never do that. BIG NO.
If you think that I want make mess with you. Sorry, I have lots more important things to do.

There's no reason to talk with you, to argue with you, to bother my mind about you, to think about you, and our past.

I was thinking to say I'm sorry, just because I dont want to have enemy and make a better situation between us even though we cannot be friend anymore. I was thinking to do that just to make our friendship ended not in bad condition, I wanted to make it ended nicely and it's okay not being friend anymore. If someone asked me, which one better having a 'stranger' in your life but you really dont like and hate her or having a 'stranger' in your life just like other stranger (the real stranger i mean). I rather choose having 'stranger' just like the other stranger. That's the reason why I wanted to say sorry. But, I take my promise to do that.

YOU
just a little thing and memory from past that have nothing to do with my present life and my future.

it's almost overs

2009-11-06T00:38:00.002+07:00

Yeay! I only need to print everything and do some folding and cutting and EVERYTHING finish.. haha.. Tomorrow, I'm going to finish all of this school things and have fun with my families member haha.

After this things finish, I want to go shopping. Buy some new clothes, watch movie, buy my mom, dad, and my brother birthday present, hang out with friends, etc. The things that I didn't do for this last 2 weeks because this stupid, many final project that making me busy. The lecturers ask me to do this, change this. They are 3 different person that have different opinions and design style.

well, going to sleep now. It's 1.43 am haha. 7 days to going home.. :)

counting down 9 days

2009-11-04T08:16:00.002+07:00

It's november already. And less than two months left for this year.
I haven't get some of my wish from my wish list (but, i already got most of them :) thank to God)

I have few of wish list again hahahaha
1. I want to change my wish that I want ipod touch to I want Iphone 3gs.
2. I wish I had time machine that make time faster, go to 13 November
3. And I'm going to turn to 18, so I wish I can be more mature, not easily get confused of
something, and I can control my emotion better than before
4. I want to wear my senior high school again (this holiday maybe the last time I can wear my
uniform to my old school) haha

-9 days before going home
Today, I'm going to print out some of my mock up. Hope tomorrow the lecturers (yeenoh and cmc) like my designs (i hope so).
Then, today I think I'm going to add some additional design, the packaging.. :)
It's wednesday today means 2 day classes left for this semester. Finally it's most the end of my third semester. Thanks to God who lead and always beside me all the time.. :)

;)

2009-11-02T21:26:00.003+07:00

nyoh tak update, mr ada org sg ngomong "knp yah org2 sg tak link ini ga pernah ngupdate"
sibuk pwol akhir2 ini, final project...apa sg tak kerjano dr tanggal 19-31 October totally nggak guna. kemaren mb hari ini sg bener2 guna. rubah total smuaa!!
Stlh tdr jam 3 n ngomong b papa mama, ga maw dtelp smntara kmrn, finally uda keliatan wujudne tgsku
tgl bsk konsultasi sama 1 lecture, kamis sama 2 lecturers. then print. selesai
tinggal tunggu tanggal submission terus assesment
then plg...

GOING BACK TO INDO IN 11 DAYS... :)
MISS MY FRIENDS :p

chance?

2009-10-23T07:47:00.004+07:00

I was thinking about 'chance' when I was trying to sleep last night. I always believe that
"everybody need the second chance".. But, how if you already give them the second chance, and you're thinking to give them the other chances because you always forgive them?

Anyway, it just a simple argument inside my head. Hahaha. Today I only slept about 6 hours and woke up because my stupid dream and my hungry stomach. I was dreaming that I ate 2 ayam goreng pemuda and pete goreng. I ate all of them then I woke up. I was very hungry, and I decided to wake up and had my breakfast.
Today, is the last school day of this week. That's mean I should start doing the final outcome for this ISP.

doraemon

2009-10-21T12:29:00.003+07:00

Aku ingin begini aku ingin begitu, ingin ingin ku banyak sekali..
seandaine ya ak py doraemon. huaaaa
Ak lagi pengen macem2 skr!!
1. Pengen ndang ditentuno b gurue stuju ga b topik ku, ndang cepet kerja..
2. Pengen selesai ISP
3. Pengen pgi nonton Cloudy with A Chance of Meatball 3D.
4. Pengen cepet pulang surabaya, ktmu temen2, keluarga, mb chanel :)
5. Pengen beratku 40 kg. (slalu ae, mr wes 40 ada ae sg buat naek, mb ak makan tok kerjaanku, aplg lek lbur ga ngapa2in kek hari ini TT)
6. Pengen kaya toast, hot milk tea
6. Pengen beli ini, pengen beli itu, pengen jalan2, pengen ini, pengen itu masi banyak pengenkuuu...

Tapi eleke, lek uda tak dapetno, eh akhir2 e ak ya ga sepiro ya apa gitu ky sg ta bayangno wkt ak pengen. (ak sering kek gini, terutama klo pengen sesuatune tu barang). Contoh, pengen bli headset bluetooth, lensa, tas, pas bli sueneng pwol) eh pas wes agak lama pake, y wes, biasa ae, malah bbrp tak gletakno.. Really need to change this habit.

October tinggal 1o hari lagi, marigitu november kira2 2 mingguan lah paling lama, marigitu pulang. huaaa. ga taw poo, rasae pengen cepet2 pulang. Hidup di Indo mmg lebi enak, ga meker peer blas. hahahaha.. any way, wish me luck for this freaking busy week, project. hahaha
mulai hari ini maw countdown hari ah. hehehe

big girls dont cry

2009-10-20T14:11:00.003+07:00

Currently listening this song
"Big Girls Don't Cry"

Don't know why, but this song always remind me about the time when I was sitting on the plane on the way to Singapore. Yeap. it's almost one and a half years ago. Sat next to my mum, cried.
Turned on my ipod and listened to this song. Suddenly, my tears stopped and i feel relax..

love this song so much

3 weeks assigment

2009-10-19T21:40:00.004+07:00

My mum went back to Indonesia already.. Back to Reality. I should pay everything by myself. :(

Tomorrow, NAFA's hell started.
Doh!! Tema entut pokoke. Celebration, terus outcome e harus 2 poster a3, 1 catalog A6 (min 8 lembar), invitation and ticket (2 in one), 3 postcards. Apa2an ini, dipekere ak dewa apa? tamba taon tamba akeh ae tugase.

Wes gitu, ngga taw maw tema celebration itu maw dikembangno jadi apa. PASRAHH. Moga2 lancar2 ae. Aminn..

Ndang cepet kelar, hasil lmyn, pulang, menikmati liburan dengan tenang :)

friendship

2009-10-16T23:20:00.002+07:00

Bulan ini rasae kok ak makin rajin ngepost y? huahaha.
Anyway. hari ini ak pgn nulis something about friendship (again. haha)

I know I'm not expert at making new friends, or maybe in someway maybe I've been disappointed some of my friends (human make mistake right?)

I've been thinking of this question for quite a long time, " Who is my true friend?"
Sering, kalo ngomong apa kalo pas lagi curhat sama papa ato mama ttg temenku, mrk blg temen baekmu yang mana sih? Km bilang si A bestie mu (well, they didn't call it bestie, temen baek tepatnya) terus km juga blg si b, si c, si d, temen baekmu? Ga smua org bisa km blg temen baek.
Waktu itu, yang ada malah ak ngomel2 sendiri, blg ke mereka, "Yah, tp kan kita deket, kita sering cerita2 juga, wajar dong ak blg dia temen baek"

Sekali lagi, harus ak akuin "Orang tua (especially mama) py feeling yg seringkali tepat bgt"
Dengan jalannya waktu, banyak hal2 yang terbukti.
Ngga cuma dalam ngebeli barang, yang dengan jalannya waktu bakalan ketauan tu barang cacad ngga? tu barang mutunya bagus ga?
So does friendship.. Maw dibilang tu pertemenan uda 4 taon, 5 taon, bahkan umur lebi tua laennya, we wont know those guys or even our friendship quality until something happen and process it. Apa pertemenan itu cukup kuat? ato justru ancur?
prinsip friendship itu : trust, communication.. Trust them, and if something bothering your mind, ask them, communicate with them.

Lepas dari kata friendship itu sndri, balik ke tiap individu yg ngejalaninnya. Seberapa dia ngehargai persahabatan itu? Ato justru ngebuang dengan gitu gampangnya?

"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."
I strongly agree with this statement. So, let time reveal who you are.

ps :
postingan ini tidak ada mksd nyindir siapapun, kalo ngerasa YA SUDAH, hahaha

sick

2009-10-13T08:31:00.002+07:00

ARGGGGHHH. Wth with my stomach??? It's really hurt. Yesterday morning till afternoon I was fine. Dunno why, last night suddenly I got stomach cramp. It suddenly come and go. Today, I got last consultation class for my assignment but I dont think I can go to school in this condition. SHIT!

mi pedes cabe 8

2009-10-12T17:20:00.003+07:00

Today I had a bowl of karage ramen at Tiong Bahru with my mom. I ordered it with 8 chilies. Last time, I was ok eating that, but today I cannot handle it anymore. It's not suitable with my stomach anymore. I think it because I haven't eat spicy food for months since I was coming back to Singapore..

After that, we went to general hospital, looking for my grandma fake leg, then we went to vivo. Shopping with my mum :)
now, after walking without stopping. we are relaxing at the apartment :)

bffs..

2009-10-11T22:02:00.002+07:00

Miss my besties lots!!

karina, meme, vivi, and vivien. Want to hangout with them..

it's over-secondhand serenade

2009-10-10T02:10:00.002+07:00

"My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you ' or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it"

After all, I feel relieved. No regret, nothing to say.
Gud night

release stress with SHOPPING

2009-10-03T20:45:00.002+07:00

I couldn't find any thing that I like yesterday while my friends bought some clothes yesterday at Far East, so sad..

But today, I'm so happy. I went to takasimaya and vivo with my friend. And I bought 1 mango's top, 1 pull and bear skirt, and 1 forever 21's dress. hahaha.
I always love shopping and it always make me happy.

relax time

2009-10-02T07:49:00.003+07:00

October.. means less then two months to going home :) and closer to the busy day (the final project for this semester and assigment) huff!!

I slept at 2 am yesterday and woke up at 8 am coz I'm hungry. Then, HERE I AM. Today, I'm going to fulfill my desire to go shopping with my roommate and my classmate, probably some of my housemates going to join us to haha. FREE DAY! I don't want to touch any homework today. Well, I want to take a look something to buy, yeap.. If there's not something that take lot of my attention, maybe I'm not gonna buy it today. I'll wait for my mom to buy it for me, she's going to be here on 10 October and she's going to stay with me till 19th. Yea!!!

drag me out from this routine

2009-09-29T13:29:00.003+07:00

I want to get lots of thing and I also want to do lots of things. HA?!

damn, i really want to hang out. yesterday and the day before yesterday, I already went to the cinema, but what I truly want now is not watching movie (okay, honestly I love watching movie), I want to shopping, or at least just hang out somewhere.. no matter where is it. any mall can, bedok? jurong? serangoon? and blah blah blah.. everywheree..
Very boring! Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday. Just sat in front of my computer, ordered food, cooked, chatted, online, fitness, did homework. damn, I really want to get off from this routine.

miss my mum, sis, auntie, and chanel (good dog :D)

no mood for homework

2009-09-25T14:18:00.002+07:00

Two months remains.. But, I really miss everything that I left at Indo.. :(
After my dad and my brother went back to Indo after visiting me, I'm feeling so lonely here. I love them so much. Having them beside me, really make me feel save and no need to worry about anything. TT

I really want to going back SOON or maybe I want the days change to 10 October, coz my mom gonna be with me..

hate the feeling when the people that I loved, going back to Indonesia, and i'm still here..:(

omg

2009-09-21T21:18:00.002+07:00

Two days with them, but I ate lots already.
Last night, I had dinner at Newton, my fav place to eat, I ordered oyster omelet (the big one of course), stingray, fried rice, and soursoup.
Then this morning I had breakfast at the hotel, and I ate 3 pieces of croissant with lots of strawberry jam, 3 kaya toast, one glass of milk and egg. Then had boon tong kee for lunch. I ate more than my bro ate (usually he ate more than me). After that, I went to bugis by sumthing for my mac book and I bought burger king and oyster mee sua, and I also grab Pringles.

i ate lots right??!?!!

it's not ordinary sunday

2009-09-20T16:28:00.007+07:00

Every Sunday, usually I go to church, then have lunch. But today is different. I went to church, after that I went to a japanese supermarket and i found edamame. gosh! I've been looking for it but I couldn't found it. Then I bought it. After that I went to carefour, bought a bunch of grape, went home, and I found two packages of nyonya siok's crackers in my cupboard, then I decided to cook it. Unfortunately, there is no oil provided by my housemom. Then, I went to supermarket, bought cooking oil, and started to cook it. Hahaha. After that, I cleaned my room, my wardrobe, dining table, make up table ( is it the real name? haha dun care la!). My father and my bro are coming to singapore today, and I'm sure my father will say comment about my condo. I dont want to get a bad comment hahahaha. I threw away my useless things, cleaned up my wardrobe, packaged my clothes (coz i'm not sure that I can bring my clothes by myself when I'm returning back to indo this nov, too many cloths and things that I must bring back to indo). (btw, cleaning the house make me loose some ons ahaha)

Tralalallala. Everything looks more tidy than before, than I brought my lappie to my room, and enjoying the room hahaha.. I took lots of picture, using my photobooths and also my old handphone, I still love its camera. ahhaha.

last night when i was polished my nails, suddenly this idea came to my mind
hey, why i not use my nail polish on my mouse? hahaha
now, i want to buy some 'blink2' things that i can stick it on it, not swarowski for sure. haha,
that's only cheap2 one mouse hahaaha

well, after this, i'm going to have dinner with my dad and bro. where? spize maybe? haha.. i love their nasi goreng pattaya and roti john, of course with their ice longan and lime juice. slurrp. haha
bye2 diet. (omg!)

process

2009-09-16T08:43:00.003+07:00

Life is a process, and I think this time maybe a He gives me a problem in my friendship life. I do talk to my friend, I've tried to make it better and fix it. I talked, explained, and tried to make it clear because I don't want to lose my friend, I don't want to have problem with anybody. I really want to fix it. I already put effort to make it better, but if there's nothing that my'friend' do to make it better and with ....'s stubborn attitude just said that there's nothing happened between us. What can I do except just shut my mouth and let all happened? I asked my friend, "Is it worth it to keep this friendship and try once again to fix it?" and she said,"No" (i trust this girl, coz I always ask her opinion and i think she's a wise friend haha)
I already tried to save my friendship but if it can't, then I just let it go.
Anyway, I still have lots of friends.. and I still can have lots of friend even without ..........
(yea, you know who. xoxo)

caooo

thanks god

2009-09-12T19:45:00.004+07:00

This morning, I went to my church office, doing some practice for tomorrow service at church, that's mean one of my wish come true, I BECOME A SINGER AT MY CHURCH and tomorrow is my first service after more than one year only sit at church, without doing anything for God and the other people at my church hahaha.. After that, I had lunch with some of them. I had Subway, the 6 inch wheat bread + teriyaki chicken + mayo + (of course) chili sauce plus a glass of barley. I love Subway and Burger King's Barley. hahaha.

Then, I called my friends, asked where are they?? I went to Orchard, after I arrived at orchard she said that she's still on the way to The Heeren, she wanted to go to HMV. I said that I'll go there and we meet there. But don't know why, my heart and my desire make my call here again, and I said "Wait me, I want to look something at burberry", huahauahuahaua

I went around the shop, but I couldn't find the bag that I wanted. I've seen this bag since last July, and I'm still thinking to buy that bag or not. Instead of buying the 'fake' burberry bag, (my friends bought at Pasar Atum and it's only cost 500k?? watt?!?!) I decided to buy the real one. Sadly the colour that I wanted already not available already and I bought the other colour,

taaaaddaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.........

i took this pics at the web, but my bag's colour is not this. I already search for "winter charet" for the colour, and i found this. Mine is magenta but more to purple.. haha.

2009's wishlist (accomplished today)
-burberry bag
-do some service at church

one of the perfect day

2009-09-04T01:09:00.006+07:00

Very tiredd -.-. Today, I had class from 9am-6pm. The first class is Design in Context 1, I should do the presentation today about the medieval manuscript era. (what is it?, although my group already discussed about that and we done the presentation already, I'm still confused with all those style) haha..The class should be ended at 10.30 but as usual the lecture end it at 11.30. We have the next class at 12, and we haven't eat yet and my classmate haven't print her homework for the next class. Then after that class, we rushed to the printing shop and had our lunch. I had fried rice and HOT MILK TEA. love itt.. ahha

Nothing's special at the typography class and the next class is Working with Visual and Text, as the previous weeks, this lesson is one of the boring class in Nafa. haha. I don't know what is the lecture is talking about. So, usually every week during his class I just go to canteen and grab some food, and I also did it today haha.I bought yogurt and fried banana. I really wanted to go home soon cos' I want to meet my cousin. But the lecture still talking till 6.15 pm.
I went home, took a shower, then went to orchard road. I met my cousin at Gucci Shop, Paragon.

I saw the cutest shoe there. It is a chain. I really want it.very cuteee right??

Then I move to other side of the shop. I saw one gucci wallet. I really want to buy it TT
But, I remembered my promise, I won't buy Gucci Wallet till the end of the year, (sigh)

i promise not to buy gucci wallet this year. so santtaaa, give me one kay??

Then I went to Lawrys, had dinner with him. It's been long time ago. I haven't ate Lawrys since hmm maybe 6-7 years ago. I love it so muchhh!!!
Suddenly, I forgot about my diet and ate the whole set. (bread, salad, rib, mashed potato, creamy corn, and the dessert).
I also got a GOOD news today, Fecil told me that she is going to Singapore ~~the day after tommorow~~ (it's already morning now) tomorrow. yeay yeay.. she'll be here till 11.

perfect day?? maybe it's one of them
good morning, i need to sleep haha

insomnia again

2009-09-03T02:32:00.003+07:00

Huaaaa.. I think I got insomnia, I went to bed around 9.30pm , tried to sleep. But I couldn't. I kept moving my body, right to left, left to right of my bed, changing my sleep position.
Don't know what time is it, I finally can sleep, then 3.30 am, I woke up again. Tried to sleep. AGAINN.. But, at the end I gave up coz I can't sleep anymore. Turned on my laptop, decided to doing some of my homework after grabbing a bread.
It's all because of TWO GLASSES OF MILK TEA that I drunk this afternoonn. damnn

school things

2009-09-01T21:55:00.002+07:00

I'm not doing any homework today. Not because I don't have homework, but
I'M TOO LAZY....

I only did one homework and it was the homework from my church. I'm joining a class in my church, and (again) I don't know what it called in English, the basic knowledge of christianity?? haha...

btw, I'm having studio photo shooting today. and
beside taking the model photographs, we also took some pics haha
here's some of them

ronald, me, kathe.. (wat happen with ronald?? haha)

vita n me (i look so fat. I know I'm gaining weight, but not this fat). :)

from left-right

(vita,kathe,yuni)

behind the scene
and this is my new lens
(capture it with my stupid phone, but hv a better camera then my bb)

bye-bye august

2009-08-31T20:08:00.002+07:00

yippie, today's the last day of August. Well, I've been out of control this month. I keep eating, especially snacks, cakes, and those oily-oily things. haha. Come on! It's almost september, and that's mean 3 months to going home, and this year school holiday I'm going to use it 100 percent. Why? Next year, I won't go back to Indo till November, because the internship thing. Damn!
That's why, I'm gonnaa eat what I want, do what I want to, and spend my time with my beloved friends and family haha..

if yesterday, I wrote what I want to buy on september, today I'm going to write what I should do :
- Loss 2 kgs

lazy girl

2009-08-30T18:04:00.002+07:00

It's almost the end of the month. I'm feeling happy. Why? I don't know what it called in english, but since last month I used to write down what I buy with my money, and write down the price). And new month means my bad habit's(big spender) record turn into zero again. yeay yeay yeay...
september wish list :
- new lens (i wish i get it next month)
- new high heels

Well, tomorrow is monday again. damn! I haven't do anything even though I was sitting in front the computer since this afternoon. haha.. still doing nonsense thing, such as facebooking, chatting, being a stalker (seeing others' facebook profile), listening to itunes.

well, gotta take a bath now. caoooo...

lazylazylazy girll!!!!!!!!!! do your homework soon!

escape theme park

2009-08-29T22:15:00.003+07:00

Tired. Tired. Tired.
I woke up at 10 o clock (thx God!, i often wake up at 8 o clock, even though I don't have to go to school or do something else that make me must wake up at that time), then had breakfast with one of my housemate at J.co. Then I went to Sim Lim and bought a new lens for my dslr. yeay yeay yeay. I'm very happy today. finally I get what I want.

After that I went home, took a rest for awhile, then had a web cam call with my bestie, and went to Pasir Ris..
Finally I went to Escape Theme Park, but the Theme Park is totally different with what I've been imagine. hahaa. it's too ordinary. wahahah. And I took some pics with my new lens.. haha
here's some of the pics

friend?? wth

2009-08-28T08:38:00.003+07:00

WOOOOOO..
let me remind you, it's not the first time for me that someone that I thought is my friend act like stranger, just keep in silent, and seems like we're a stranger. you're the second!
So, whatever in your mind, whatever you think about me. I don't care. One thing I know, I never do anything that against you, or anything you may think about!!

geezzz. is that a friend?

50mm, im coming :)

2009-08-21T13:54:00.002+07:00

yeay! my mum just called me and she asked me,"What r u doing now?", I answered : "doing my homework".
then she said again,"well, u already done your job, then I have a good news for you"

the news is
"SHE SAID THAT I CAN BUY NEW LENS FOR MY DSLR!!!"

yihaaaaaaaa.... :) perfect. perfect!! hahahahahha

i'm going to buy it SOON, so when my dad come here to visit me next month, i can ask him to buy me the other lens hahaha.. i love photography..

gift from God

2009-08-19T16:09:00.003+07:00

Had lots of fun with my dearest cousin(or i should call her my sister, coz I love her and she always treat me like her own sister) and aunt(my second mum?, yep she is). Went shopping together, walked around orchard road (especially ION orchard, we went there everyday haha), ate lots (me n my sister ate 6 different kinds of foods for dinner, yeaa.. i totally forget bout my weight), shared our stories, slept together, etc. What I called it? Holiday at Singapore (even though I'm not in holiday, but I had fun like I'm in holiday)

Thanks for visiting me.. haha.. and make me gain weight (but, time with family is more important than everything right?)

gonna miss u sis, cu at december when u come back to indo
miss u also my aunt. cu at november... hahaha
and deep from my heart i really miss the rest of my family, especially my mum!

singapore

2009-08-10T09:22:00.006+07:00

Although sometimes I miss my days at Senior High School, I never regret that I've moved to Singapore. Meet new people, learn how to be an independent girl, it force me to do everything by myself. My first year at Singapore maybe wasn't the greatest time in my life, but by the time I think it gonna be better day by day. Meeting more new friends, hang out with them, having fun, share our stories with them, share our thoughts, etc.
I spend my days with having fun with them even though sometimes I must do hard for the homework. hahaha.. nothing's perfect huh?

here's my friends.
well, this is my closest friend, roommate, housemate, and a loyal friend that always hangout with me, give advices when i need it.
beside her, there are some people that always be with me.. yea my housemate, i love you to the top, :)

they're not only them, i love u all... (even though i'm not mention ur name) haha

midnite or even morning????

2009-08-09T00:09:00.002+07:00

i know that's too late and I should go to bed now coz tomorrow i have to go to church. but i really really want to upload the photos that I took at Sentosa hahaha. 200 photos.. haha.. i already delete some photos coz the facebook's maximum photos/ album is 200 photos.
that album dedicated to my dear friend, haha...
"congratz wennn!!! congratz her!!, tengkiu traktirane haha"

eh..
i feel weird u know, i always waiting for the right time, the right person, the right thing, but don't know why I always found that nothing's perfect. TT

i (do) believe ...

2009-08-02T06:44:00.002+07:00

......................

lonely and eat lots

2009-07-22T20:34:00.007+07:00

miss u so much

miss my family a lot!!! especially my mum. i want her to come to singapore now..

don't know why i feel lonely lately(even though i surrounded with my beloved friends almost 24/7) and i want my family here, around me :(

well, what happened lately??

i can't stop eating..

like yesterday, i had 2 pieces of cakes, (breakfast)

then i ate a plate of rice with fish and vegetable. (lunch)

after finishing 2 pieces of sweet bread and decided to stop eating, i still took 1 pieces of kaya bread. (afternoon)

THEN, at 10 pm, i still grab a piece of dunkin donuts (i never regret about this coz i love dunkin so much xoxo) :D(night)

today, i also eat, eat and eat...

hahaha.. come on, if i can't stop this habits, i'm going fat again soon..

from tomorrow, i promise to myself "I WON'T EAT CAKES even BREADS, till saturday!" haha

this is because i love cakes n bread MORE than rice or other foods and i can't stop when i eat it

20 july 2009

2009-07-20T11:41:00.005+07:00

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
(YOU & ME LYRICS - LIFE HOUSE) video

20 July 2009
I've been wasting 1 year of my life, and from today
I won't do it again..
LIFE GOES ON - never wait for anything or anyone
:)

my 'new' blackberry

2009-07-13T08:08:00.005+07:00

After almost six month be my super black blackberry, she(?) change her(? again) appearance hahaha...
At first I want make all my electronic devices in BLACK colour, the same colour with my car, but when I went to Hongkong this June, I buy GREEN colour silicon case-glow in the dark..

Finally, on 11 July
I change my bb appearance, I totally change the appearance. no more black colour for all the body, trackballl, and the silicon case.. I change it to white colour (but my trackball still black haha)

This is my bb :
love it.. hahaha

"GREAT" morning

2009-07-06T07:09:00.003+07:00

see?? 7.07 am and the website still says MODULE REGISTRATION IS NOT OPEN after made me wake up every one hour checking my laptop with two swallow eyes, and this morning, I still cannot open it..
nafa website always suck? or nafa never on time??

sleepyyy

2009-07-06T00:31:00.002+07:00

12.31 am
Haven't open yet..
omg!! tomorrow i'm going to have photography lesson on 8 am and the registration STILL haven't open yet...

Well.. I can't sleep tight except the registration open already or at least they give the new announcement like what time they r going to open the registration...

Hmmm.. By the way, I only have 7 days left at indo
I have a food list that I should eat before I'm returning back to singapore

FOOD LIST

1. ~~Gelato pancake with ice cream (of course they must have berries) hahaha~~
2. Tahu tek
3. Bubur andika plaza
4. Gudeg Pecel Bu Har
5. ~~Terang bulan~~

TO DO LIST

I also have to do list :
1. Fix my glasses
2. Go to G-walk (omg! i haven't go to g-walk since I arrived at surabaya on 11 may)
3. Hang out with my shs' friends on tuesday (don't forget to bring their stuffs that i bought at hk)
4. Pack my things

well.. i think this is my last post,
i'm going to sleep and wake up again at 5 o clock (waiting my ex classmate call me or lili and vita call me at 5 o clock)

gud niteeee
^^

beijing,xian, shanghai

2009-06-30T12:10:00.003+07:00

Beijing 19 June-22 June
Nyampe beijing langsung makan malem, terus baru ke hotel.. First impression of this city, "kok sepi bangettt..." sepi abis, udah gitu orang2 nya naek sepeda semua.. maklum ke beijing terakhir kali pas 5 taon (12 taon lalu haha)
terus tour guidenya boring banget, cerita2 ttg ini itu

Hari kedua jalan2 ke tian an men square, forbiden city, sama temple of heaven.. bener2 kayak kebakar matahariiii.. jalan mulu, dari pagi sampe siang.. huff.. item kayaknya..

Hari ketiga kita jalan2 ke greatwall. tangganya ga rata, ada yg tinggi banget ada yang biasa, bikin capeee... heran bayangin jaman dulu greatwall itu dibuat tempat pertahanan dari musuh. itu prajurit yang naek apa ngga cape dulu sebelum perang hehe.. sorenya kita ngeliat pertunjukan acrobatic, gila ada yg maen kayak orang ngga punya tulang !!
(photo coming soon) haha

Hari ke empat pagi2 kita uda ke airport, maw ke xi'an

Xi'an 22-23 June
Ini kota lebi sepi lagi daripada beijing, tapi satu yg keren, kotanya dikelilingi benteng.. kayak hidup di istana gitu haha.. i like the hotel very muchh kerenn.. tapi sebelum itu, kita liat show sambil dinner. katanya tarian dinasti tang, tapi ada yg gaya narinya kaya tandak bedes hahahha...

Shanghai 23-25 June
Shanghaii.. Ini baru kota, terang benderang, byk mall. hahaha..
Jalan2 ke tv tower ngeliat pemandangan dari atas, terus dari ketinggian 200 meter kita jalan diatas kaca.. bayangin ngeliat bawah gitu dari ketinggian segitu.. haha
terus ke tempat cafe2nya (lupa namanya apa) kerennn..
malemnya ke the bund, tapi lagi d renov buat persiapan expo taon depan jadi ngga bisa liat apa2...

Nah dari ketiga tour ini kita baru nyadar kalo tour guide yang paling enak yang di beijing, meskipun awal2nya ngga suka
"orng ini kok maksa yah kita harus dengerin ceritanya pake ngomong gini kalo ngga ddgerin "adeeekkkkkkk..."

well, segini dl..
photo coming soonn
next stop hongkong jg ntarr

i learn

2009-06-18T09:08:00.000+07:00

LESSON 1:

ak belajar byk ttg persahabatan akhir 2 ini, belajar ttg apa arti persahabatan sesungguhnya. Mungkin slm ini waktu ak ngadepin masalah ak cenderung fokus ke masalah itu sendiri tanpa ambil pelajaran dari apa sg terjadi.
Tapi, skr ak belajar kalo dapet masalah bukan fokus ke masalahnya, tapi petik apa yg bisa kita ambil dr masalah itu, belajar! ambil hikmah, pesen2 yg kita dapet dari tu masalah

Sahabat....
Sahabat tu orang yang bisa km andalin dlm segala situasi, orng yang tetep stay saat orng2 laen pergi dr kehidupan kt..

Persahabatan..
Bukan cm status, bukan cm bilang "ak temenmu kok; kita temenan kok" tp persahabatan sesungguhnya itu janji..

Mungkin kadang kita bilang kita kecewa sama sahabat kita, tanpa nyadarin kalo kadang kita juga ngecewain mereka..
Persahabatan yg sesungguhnya itu waktu km nrima sahabat km apa adanya; tanpa nuntut apa2

Kehilangan sahabat juga sakit rasanya. Tapi anggep itu sebuah proses. Mungkin kita buat salah, ato emang kita lagi dikasi suatu kesempatan untuk nguji persahabatan kita..

"True friends always be with us through the years"

Next topic,
I'm going to shanghai beijing hongkong tomorrow.. bye2 diet.. hahaha..
19-25 june beijing shanghai
25-30 hongkong.. YEAY!!!

Lots of fun with my best cousins, my lovely family, at my favourite city..
and....
SHOPPING and EATING....( i really want to eat the original peking duck) haha
i love peking duck

taking nice pics.. hahaha

one word: PERFECT!

XD

wew, ta kasi warna sg beda2 untuk TOPIK yang berbeda hahaha...
ngga kerasa tinggal 1/2 bulan lg nde surabaya hehe..
hmmm.. i'll miss this city a lot.. enak d sini, ngga pusing mikirin tugas, ada papa mama disini yg siap ngebantu, hhehe.. apa2 gampang..
but, i realize i must be mature, independent.. uda mw 18 yaaa.. wkwkw

hmm... mskpn d singapore hrs dag dig dug tiap hr kalo ada tugas, tp ak percaya sama Tuhan apapun bisa. aminnn.. hehe
Do the best and let God do the rest..

cu after holiday..

june.. here i come

2009-06-06T12:01:00.000+07:00

wew.. ngantukk.. insomnia kemaren malem ga bisa tidur sampe jam 12 lebih.. TT
n my maid wake me up at 8 o'clock..
what a wonderful day.. hahahhahaha

Lama ngga post sumthing haha..
I've been busy lately.. Haha.. Last wednesday, I went with my shs' friends to PTC, after that I had lunch and watched movie with my singapore's friends. I ate at pizza hut. I miss stuff crust and the salad so much haha.. I ate a lot, haha.. Didn't think about my weight anymore.. xoxo
Then I went to cinema, first I want to watch terminator, but don't know why I also want to watch "Drag Me To Hell" I really2 want to know what movie it is. It sounds interesting.
BUT.......

From the beginning till the end of the movie, I can't stop close my eyes and I was bbm-ing during the movie hahaha... I only watched 1/4 of the movie haha.. This movie will be my first and last horror movie in my life.. I promise.. :)

Well, today I'm going to go to my bestie's sweet seventeenth party, and... I CANNOT REMEMBER THE POLONAISE. sigh...

Something make me feel so happy these two days,
Beratku 41 kg. haha..
Tomorrow I'm going to Bali. I'm planning to go to Kuta Beach, eating Sate Penyu (it's so delicious haha), eating ayam taliwang.. wahahahaha..
i love bali....

yup, akhirnya uda juni.. many things will be happen in this month:
i'm going to bali on 8 june
my lovely cousin will arrive on 16 june
i'm going to shanghai, beijing, and HONGKONG on 19 June
Rasae bulan ini bakal berlalu cepet pwol hahahhaa

terakhir (hmpr lupa haha)
kemaren rapot nafa semester 2 ku keluar haha
ONE WORD : PUAS!!!!!
gpa a.k.a IP ku naek 0.21 haha
taon lalu dapet 1 A, 4 B, 4 C.
skr ngga dapet A satupun tapi dapet 7 B, 2 C hahahha..
at least ada kemajuan masio naeknya juga ngga jaoh2 amat hhehe

btw, rasae post ku kali ini campur aduk.. inggris indo..

ps : i'm feeling so happy today, wish nothing could change my mood for today.. haha

3 hours that changed everything

2009-05-21T13:36:00.000+07:00

20 May 2009
Learn something? Yes, I do..
I learn that keep silent won't make anything better, sometimes just make something worst, even you lost direction. I kept it by myself (just tell it to few of my friends that I think will understand me), but yesterday changed everything, I can't hold on anymore, I was so sick of it. Saw something that I can't see coz it really make me hurt. I smiled, I laughed, I joked, but I didn't show them my true feelings. Only two of them that really understand what's going on.
What happened yesterday wasn't too important. The most important thing is I learn and know something. First, I was thinking how cruel that person is, hurt me again for several times.. Then after I arrived at home, I realized "Maybe it's not his fault, just my fault, put myself at the place I shouldn't be, keeping my feeling even though I know I shouldn't keep it.." ~~It hurts me lots~~.

What happened next really changed me. I learned how to honest to myself, how to be honest to other people, show them my true feeling, I relieved. After I know the facts, even though it's hurt me, don't know why after that I can sleep tight. Like someone already take the heavy things on my shoulder.. Actually, I'm not as though as you look. Sometimes I want to cry, I want to have someone that not only said they understand, but I need someone that will lend their shoulder for me..

So, at future, I won't do this stupid thing anymore. I won't be rush and do some stupid things to heal my feeling. Just let time heal it, it'll get better in time. Replacing? it just make the other pain, just wait till I found the right one, at the right place and at the right time.

Special thanks to : Karina, Evi, Billy, Fecil, Lili.. (U guys make me feel better n really understand me)

PS: Some people said, one side love is better that not loving anybody, but in fact it's not that simple.

morning all

2009-05-20T09:35:00.000+07:00

I just found a new thing to do, and it's so exciting.. haha
i love blogging (new hobby) haha even though sometimes i have no idea of what I'm going to write hahahaha..

first, I want to write down my feeling today..
I woke up at 6.30 am *gosh! it's holiday, why i keep wake up so early? haha
I hope today activities will be more exciting then yesterday. I think tonight I'll going to G-Walk.. eating food *hope it won't make me gain weight ^^

3 days to that sucks date.. 23 May is coming.. it's tottaly different than last year. hope there's no more tear at that day. I've been thinking of it at 14 May(the day when some1 tell me that he love me), 17 May(when some1 promise me that he won't let me down), and 23 May(the day that I taught will be the sweetest memory I've ever had).. I never hate him (and I never can do it). But, I'm so tired and sick of the memories and feelings. I know it's been one year already, and I should move on. but where do I go.. Well, enough of it.

Hmm.. My dreams for this holiday :
meet my family
meet my dear cousin and friends
~~gain weight~~
drive my own car
shopping at hongkong
be a princess (you know, the time when you don't need to do anything by yourself coz it done by your maid.. haha)
lots of fun...

x.0.x.0
ulrica (lovebabyblue)

boring..

2009-05-19T22:16:00.000+07:00

boring boring.. garinkk liburan
tiap hari kerjaan nya cm bgn pagi, mandi, breakfast, uda.. palink liat DVD terus gitu2 aja..
waaaaaaa....
pengen temen2 sma pada kelar ujian terus jalan2..

pre holiday

2009-05-11T06:54:00.000+07:00

I had a good start for my holiday. I went to Genting with my friends, having some fun time, enjoy the game, and we never forget to shopping.. hahaha..

today, I'm going back to Surabaya, I miss my family, home, and my SHS' friends, also surabaya's foods.. I want to drive my own car too.. haha..

Don't know why, I dont have a good mood for today. I really confused about something and I don't know what should I do. In one side, I don't want to hurt anybody, in the other side, I also don't see any reason to do it. Hff... No matter what, I'm not a backstabber..

See problems not from our perspective

2009-05-03T23:47:00.000+07:00

Ak denger crita ini kemaren waktu Kesan n this is a true story

"Ada sepasang cowo cewe, mereka uda tunangan n maw nikah. One day, si cwe ini yang jg seorang misionaris maw pergi ke surabaya, 3 bln lagi mereka uda maw nikah. Si cowo ngenterin si cwe ini ke airport, n pesen si cwe harus kabarin si cowo begitu dia nyampe surabaya. Tapi ngga ada kabar sm skli, padahal juga ga ada berita ada kecelakaan pesawat dll. Si cowo ini nunggu 1 minggu n minta kabar dari keluarga si cwe yang ada di India. Nunggu 1 minggu ga ada kabar, terus dia kirim email ke temen si cwe di US(juga ga dibales)..
Akhirnya si cowo ini mutusin untuk pergi ke surabaya, dia uda pesen tiket dsb, n besok uda maw ke surabaya. Sblm dia berangkat itu dia buka laptopnya and nemuin satu email balasan dari temen si cewe ini. Temennya ini nulis," Km ngga taw ya kalo cwe mu uda meninggal?"
Gak ada balasan dari keluarga si cwe karena ortunya ternyata langsung nyusul ke surabaya begitu denger kabar anaknya meninggal and gak ada pikiran untuk kabarin si cowo ini. Si cwe meninggal karena buru2 naek kereta untuk pergi ke kota laen dari surabaya. Dia uda berhasil lompat ke kereta, tapi dia gak keliatan spupunya, jadi dia ngeluarin kepalanya dari jendela, n suddenly kepalanya kebentur ma tiang dan koma saat itu juga, 1 minggu kemudian dia meninggal.
Si cowo ini itu seorang kristen yang terlibat aktif di pelayanan, saat itu blame ke Tuhan.
"Tuhan, ngapain ak harus kenal n ketemu si cwe ini kalo akhirnya dia gini?", "Napa Engkau kasi dia ke aku kalo pada akhirnya dia meninggal". Dia tinggalin pelayanan n kekristenannya. Hingga 2 taon kemudian Tuhan bicara ke dia. Tiba2 ingetan waktu dia ngelamar si cwe ini keinget lagi. Waktu di lamar si cwe ini bilang "Km taw gak this year is the best year in my life. Keluargaku dipulihkan dan km ngelamar aku". Tuhan bilang,"Aku bukan ngasih dia untuk km. Tapi ak ngasi km untuk dia supaya dia bisa merasakan the best year of her life before she died"

Seringkali kita tanya ke Tuhan, "Tuhan napa aku harus alamin ini semua?";"Tuhan, napa Engkau kasih ak masalah yang bertubi-tubi" atau "Tuhan napa aku harus ketemu, kenal orang itu kalo akhirnya dia gak jadi sama aku".
Mungkin saat masalah itu dateng mungkin kita masi belum bisa liat sisi positif dari masalah itu, tanpa kita mandang masalah itu dari prespektif yang berbeda, seringkali kita liat dari perspektif kita sendiri.
See it from other perspective and give thanks to God for everythings coz we never know about His plans, but His plans always good for us.

May, don't remind me..

2009-04-23T17:05:00.000+07:00

It almost May. Everything is different if I compare it with last year. The different is not only about last year this month I still at my SHS, having fun with my friends, studying hard for my exams. It's more than that. Last year, I was doing something important in my life, I decided to continue my study at Singapore, left many things that I love, my friends, and my life that I have at Surabaya, just to achieve my dreams. When I press rewind and remember about that time, I felt that everything that happened that time seemed so perfect. I already have a good friendship with my BFF, I have a good result for my study, and the most important I have someone who I love and who love me.
The rest of time that I had before I went to Singapore was a good moment that I ever had.

Soon, I will coming back to Surabaya for my holiday, and May is coming. Even though it will be different with last year, even though it won't happened again, I will take it easy. I still have good friends here, I found friends who always be with me anytime here, I have a good university, I enjoy my life here. No need to regret of all I have chosen. I know it is the best for me. God give and He take away. But He will give you the better one. Even though not always the same thing.

Yeay

2009-04-01T20:18:00.000+07:00

Wednesday, 1 April 2009
15:39

I went to the student affair and gave them a letter that inform them that I canceled my transfer to Interior Design. I've been thinking of it since 2 days ago.

Yesterday,
when I look for Renee Tan (from 3D department) to told her that I want to cancel it, I was very confused. "Is it the right one?"
I go to the Student Affairs, they said that I should write a letter for them..
After that, I saw the interior design art work at the printing shop, I also saw some of the student was doing their design on their computer at the 2nd floor. It seems so fun and challenging.
and I said to my self, "I shouldn't be confused of it, I already decided to stay, and surrender to God for my life and future"..
Then I went home, did my homework, after I finished my homework I wrote the letter....

And today,
I already gave it to them, no matter how hard it will be, I just do my best..

a letter to myself

2009-03-30T19:14:00.000+07:00

Hey...

I'm really confused about what should I do. Last time, I cried to my mum, so I can go to NAFA because I want to graduate faster than my friends. Then, I can start working faster than them.
I also cried and worried what should I choose for my major next year. I also afraid about my future. What is my job as a graphic designer later when I already graduate from NAFA. Then, I decide to apply the transfer course form to Interior Design (and that's mean I should re take the year 1 again)..

Now, when they already approve my transfer, don't know why I start thinking again. Is it the right thing?? I'm wasting lots of time and money. And I'm not as bad as I thought before as a graphic designer. I think I can still handle it. I'm enjoying my study until now...
I also think that I don't know anything about the interior design class. I didn't know anything about it. All I know just from my auntie, she is an architect, and I love watching her do her job, I enjoy accompany her see the property.. And I also enjoy my art subject about interior design when I was in senior high school.
But I also think, I already studying for 1 year, and only 2 years left to get my degree. Should I return back? or just stay in my major? do the best for what I have.. then just surrender to God about my life, school, future job, and my future..

Even though,I don't know what am I going to do after I graduate from Graphic Design
Sometimes, I'm afraid if I don't have any idea of what should I do for my project
This is the time what I call "life by faith"

The FACTs are :
I can't rely on my auntie for my future job even though she's a architect.
I already have the graphic design's computer, camera
I already spend lots of money for my study and my life here
I also like graphic design even though I also like interior
I am TOO LAZY to re take the year 1
I never feel stress about my school (the project, homework, n stuffs)
and I believe I can do this...

The conclusions :

"I'm going to cancel my transfer to Interior Design then just surrender to God.."

The purposes why I write all of this in my blog :

- So, I can read it anytime when I get confuse and worried again about my major and future..
(remind me that I just need to do my best and let GOD do the rest, NO MORE REGRET, NO MORE WORRIED and CONFUSED)
- I left my diary's key at Indo and I need to talk and encourage myself
- I dont know with who I can share this anymore. Coz all of my closest friends already now about
this and I'm afraid if I asking them again they'll get mad.. Haha
(because I often get confused, today I said I want Interior because bla.bla..bla.. and tomorrow I
said I like Graphic) "i said it often" hahaha
......................................................and If I asking them again, maybe they'll feel that I'm very annoying haha

So whenever I read this later. I just want to remind myself to stop my bad habits "have many things in my mind that I shouldn't have(worried about this, that, and bla.. bla.. bla", and all I need to do is do my best, and let God do the rest. All of my life, my future, my study are in God's hand"
Just need to pray, and thank to God about everything I have..

Last thing...

GAK USAH PERNAH PY PIKIRAN, "COBA WAKTU ITU AK PINDAH INTERIOR, PASTI GAK GINI JADINYA..

Dilarang!!.. Haram hukumnya.. Hahaha..
Dilarang menyesali sesuatu yang enggak ak punya.. Yang ak punya tu jurusan Graphic. so do the best for it ^^

So tomorrow, I'm going to tell the 3D Lecturer that I'm cancelling my transfer

30 March 2009
lega..

less food for more food

2009-03-27T19:03:00.000+07:00

I love to eat..
I cannot control myself not to eating when my friends eat in front of me TT

I decide to doing diet with my roommate..
ME : 42 kg
Merry : 60 kg

the reason why I want to do diet is
" I'm going to go to Beijing and Hongkong this June. And that's mean "GAIN WEIGHT"
So I must prepare myself for it
Hong Kong "delicious food... slurpp haha"

and we decide to reach that goal before we going back to indo and when we success in our diet:

ME : I'm going to buy a marvelous ice cream at city link with wafer and
Strawberry and Blueberry toppings.. YUMMY =P"irresistible dessert"

Merry : She wants Godiva Ice Chocolate haha

How stupid am I.. doing this diet only for gain that weight again haha
but i want to enjoy that meal without worrying to be fatter than now ^^

>>today my weight is 45 kg

P.S : cannot wait for tomorrow.. We're going to Siloso beach to take some pictures...

-cha2 20:18-
"sleepy"

it goes on

2009-03-24T10:32:00.000+07:00

I've been stuck in the same condition for such a long time. Waiting and keep all of those things by myself. But something changed my mind. I learn something about life. "... it goes on"
It never wait for anybody, time always moving on. Time never turn back to the past. What I've done, What I've chosen. No need to regret all of them. Nothing I can do to change it. The only thing I can do it's only do the best for today.

I should do many things in my life.. I'm here not for nothing. God made me for a purpose.

Today, I woke up. Thinking of my dreams. I met many people who I love at that dream and I miss them lots. I saw someone there...
Guess who?
xoxo